In Love with Myself

It is easy to focus on the negatives in life, and yes, sometimes that can be a big  motivator.  There are two very distinctive points in my career I will never forget and both were negative:

1. My very first class evaluation I ever had.  After a month of teaching my first cycling class, my boss came in to evaluate the ride I taught.  The first  words that came from his mouth were, “You’re a train wreck.”  I am one who takes constructive criticism quite well, however, this burnt right through me (and to this day, I still wonder what it is that exactly made me a ‘train wreck’ other than he personally didn’t like my music).

2. The first video work I ever did went to market test and of 100 reviews, the one and only one that sticks in my mind to this day is that, “She (me) has no personality.”  98 great reviews and the one I remember is the one that says I have no personality.  And even though I know me and know I could not be successful in my field of work without a personality, that still hurts me to this day.

Either way, both cases made me want to be better at what I do.  I was motivated by the negative and still to this day am motivated by those two painful reminders of what once was said to me.  I also learned that not everyone is going to like me, not everyone is going to be motivated by me and that a tough skin was going to need be grow over the flesh I carried, because I would break if didn’t.

Even though I feel I have the best job in the world, motivating people, changing their lives and making them feel good about themselves; people don’t usually reciprocate.  So I make a point every day to let myself know how incredible I am, and that I am making a difference in this world, no matter how small it is.

I picked up this song off Spotify a while back, it is the last song I play in my final mile or at the end of my work out…